Don't Quit Your Daydream

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Or your day job, for that matter...

I'm 23 years old and working tirelessly at my first job out of college, giving forth my best efforts to make ends meet while coordinating my shopping agenda with my grocery list, trying to find time to get a solid workout in, and carving out just enough time at the end of the day to kick my feet up.

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However, despite my contentment with my happy little life, a small part of me constantly feels weighed down because each night as I go through the never-ending checklist in my head of what I got done that day, the imaginary box next to the title of "Following Your Dreams" remains unchecked. It's got me wondering...

Am I simply going through the motions of my comfortable life, missing my chance to chase the passion that fuels my heart?

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Perhaps I'm too hard on myself- feeling less than worthy for having not yet started my own fashion company by the age of 20 like I'd hoped- but this feeling of not chasing my passion, at least on the outside, made me wonder if anyone else finds themselves wrestling with stability and adventure as they go to sleep at night. However if it's any consolation to you, I think that if you're having even the slightest of doubts as to whether or not you're doing enough to chase that dream inside of you... you're in a lot better shape than you think you are.

When I graduated college just one year ago, I found myself feeling more frightened than ever- rushes of anxiety & worry filling my mind when excitement and confidence should've run through my veins. I was scared for the future, and worried that my chance at following my dreams could be slipping through my scared, pink-polished fingers.

But to be honest, I wasn't ready then. And to be even more honest... I still don't know if I'm ready now.

I've learned more in this first year in the real-world than I did all four years of college, and for that I am extremely grateful. Aside from learning how to build a brand's strategy, balance my never-ending work load with my very present personal life, and how to stay on budget (okay, still slightly working on this one), I learned that following your dreams doesn't have to happen over night. These amazingly too-good-to-be-true success stories that we read about in memoirs or hear while sipping our morning coffee during the 9:00 hour of the Today Show aren't the norm.

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Grey Tote: Target | Floral Scarf: Target | Fringe Heels: Chinese Laundry

I often find myself comparing my life, my skill set, and my Instagram following to the bloggers that are more well-known than me, the female entrepreneurs that have more money in the bank than I do, and the business owners who wake up everyday to their lifelong dream greeting them in the mirror, while I wake up with a feeling of self-doubt echoing through my alarm clock.

But let it be known, that this feeling like I'm not good enough or I haven't done enough isn't right. It wasn't until I started commending myself for how far I've come that I finally realized that there is no agenda for following your dreams. There is no late-notice for not quitting your job before you're ready (because Lord knows my rent isn't going to pay itself!). And there definitely is no room for self-pity when you've got as many shoes as I do.

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Pink Pleated Sleeveless Blouse: Target | Mint Green Statement Necklace (similar): Charming Charlies

My very favorite female entrepreneur and ultimate #GIRLBOSS, Sophia Amoruso said this beautiful quote that inspires me every time I read it:

“Abandon anything about your life and habits that might be holding you back. Learn to create your own opportunities. Know that there is no finish line; fortune favors action. Race balls-out toward the extraordinary life that you’ve always dreamed of, or still haven’t had time to dream up. And prepare to have a hell of a lot of fun along the way.” ― Sophia Amoruso, #GIRLBOSS

It's a beautiful thing, being a creative person who's driven to change the world. But let me just say, it's exhausting carrying around all this self-inflicted pressure to do so before I'm ready - while rocking heels, no less! Just because I haven't quit my full-time job to open that boutique or launch that website doesn't mean that I'm never going to. It simply means that I've got things to learn, money to make, and people to meet before I can do what my heart knows is possible!

I have to remind myself of this daily.

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Each step you take and path you cross is all a part of the process. Sure, starting a dorm-room business turned multi-million dollar fashion empire sounds like a beautiful premise for a memoir, but that isn't my story. My heart yearns to build a brand that represents strong & sassy women who adore fashion & interiors, but I don't think I'm the woman who that brand represents quite yet. Everyday I get a little closer to becoming her, but I'm {slowly} learning to just let go of all the things that I can't control, and let God. I pray that all my hard work, the time and effort I put in to everything I do, and a little bit of good luck can lead me to live the life of my dreams, whatever that life may be!

Here's to hoping that life brings me joy and comfort, love, and above all - a really big closet.

xoxo-3